What an incredible read. So beautiful, so intense, so funny. TF141 made me laugh so much. Being older now (I'm middle aged) I empathize so much with all the young characters trying to find themselves. Not that I didn't empathize when I was younger but I can look back on the chaos now 20 years ago and it's really just unbelievably chaotic. Being young and being unable to handle the dysfunctional world around you and reacting so much. I have empathy for Gestirn, I've worked with people like that in mental health settings and they're incredibly mentally ill and in pain. It's sad. Unfortunately people like that also get rewarded for that kind of sick thinking far too often. But the pain of youth is so real, and layered on that the pain of rejection and violence and oppression experienced in particular by queer youth is so intense.
It was just really such a beautiful exploration of youth and identity. Just incredibly well written. Absolutely one of my fav games of the year. Gonna recommend it to a lotta people. Amazing job and thanks so much for writing it. Also love the new audio additions, really gives it an added layer that elevates it.
had a nightmare of a day today- overworked, underslept, tired. clicking through pages of nothing over and over. this degeneracy is me, could've been me. fuck am i thankful for every fag like me who makes art. 🐶💙
omg i just made an account so i can comment on this. it was so hard for me to read the beginning (compliment) cause i remember going to the club alone, feeling like i didn't belong somewhere I took two busses to be. (just like me frfr) I am no longer in that place in my life but still, sometimes it's hard. This game reminds me that there is a community out there for me as long as i try to find it. There is a future worth finding.
+ the dialog had me laugh, the tumblr/discord feeds were SO accurate, the
fucking edit of the fucking cat and guinea-pig on the cube like ive watched it abt 10 times now. The color pallet shift when i turned the fkn bathroom light on and off, genius? this experience was good for the soul, UTI included.
Like, genuinely from the bottom of my heart thank you for making this game.
This was not a game. It was an alternate reality. It’s a story I have never lived, but could have easily been mine. I almost cried at several points, and ended up crying at the end. So touching. I can tell the author is a writer in the purest, rawest, realest sense. I’m a picky bastard, but in this moment I find no reason for my typical inclinations to emerge. I’ve been stealth as soon as I was able to and never looked back. This game almost makes me wish I had. Thank you for sharing a story in such a gorgeous, loving way. The details of the changing colors and backgrounds, the dialogue options that highlighted L’s people pleasing nature, the extremely realistic Discord/Tumblr/ real YouTube links… it’s a movie that breaks the fourth wall. These characters feel like collocations of real people who have long since been gone from my life. (Would not be surprised if Gestrin ended up being my ex partner XD) I have work in five hours but I had to finish this game. I see you are anonymous due to IFComp (which is how I discovered and consequently rated this game), and I eagerly await the day the reveal occurs. Maybe this is new territory for you. Or maybe you’re an established author trying out something new. Either way, thank you for a game by us, and for us <3
This was wonderful to read, thank you. "collocations of real people" is very accurate, as almost everyone in this story is based off actual people I knew who brought me to where I am now, for better and for worse, as well as snapshots of my past self. I hope it continues to reach the people who will experience it in a similar manner.
I will also say, as someone who's unstealthed himself, if you have safe means to do so, you cannot imagine how much it helps everyone else.
So many intensely relatable lines, and not necessarily where you'd expect? Like, I *also* hate my rare but intensely vivid dreams that I can't shake for a week. Usually when I come across such a thing I'd make it my discord status for a bit... I can only have one discord status, so abandoned the idea after the fifth or so line.
Like ★𝔣𝔞𝔫𝔤★ I'm asexual - skipped through a few fair chunks. I mention this because I still enjoyed the rest immensely.
I could kill Gestirn, with my bare hands. Then someone should resurrect them and get them help. But the killing with bare hands bit would be cathartic af. All this to denote a resounding triumph of characterisation.
Visuals were great too! So good I didn't really notice them, except that they were always good and complimenting the experience.
I'm asexual but I read through this whole thing I felt for L-- being a transguy myself, especially for the whole haircut thing!! the amount of times I cut my hair and they look at me and frown and say it would make me look like a boy is INSANE! being on discord also, I didn't like Ges-- they just make me blehh... with the whole "they are always arguing" and "it's a terrible idea" even after L said he had so much fun!! like they did everything and had to do everything even if they didn't.... then saying everyone was transphobic >:( I clicked on all the links and read through everything, pretty cool, I'm glad you included those thank you for this game <3
This was something, an AMAZING something. God, I think i'm the guy at the start of this story. I've been through half of it, the tumblr/discord friend groups. I couldn't stop until I finished the whole thing. I AM parts of all these people in my transness. Halfway through I realised I could actually click on the youtube links, thanks for all the random videos. I'm in some post-playthrough haze, again that was AMAZING; You've captured this whole experience so well.
I feel, in many ways, that almost every character in this game contains a crystalised point of my journey of being trans, as well as points I wish to find myself in the future. It may be relevant to highlight (before we wish to reveal ourselves publicly after IFComp finishes) that my age is a mid-point between L's and Valentine's.
The fact that someone else relates to this game in the same way confirms that I have done everything I set out to do, and that it's vital for this game to exist. Even if you remain the only person affected like this, we have done our job. Thank you.
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What an incredible read. So beautiful, so intense, so funny. TF141 made me laugh so much. Being older now (I'm middle aged) I empathize so much with all the young characters trying to find themselves. Not that I didn't empathize when I was younger but I can look back on the chaos now 20 years ago and it's really just unbelievably chaotic. Being young and being unable to handle the dysfunctional world around you and reacting so much. I have empathy for Gestirn, I've worked with people like that in mental health settings and they're incredibly mentally ill and in pain. It's sad. Unfortunately people like that also get rewarded for that kind of sick thinking far too often. But the pain of youth is so real, and layered on that the pain of rejection and violence and oppression experienced in particular by queer youth is so intense.
It was just really such a beautiful exploration of youth and identity. Just incredibly well written. Absolutely one of my fav games of the year. Gonna recommend it to a lotta people. Amazing job and thanks so much for writing it. Also love the new audio additions, really gives it an added layer that elevates it.
had a nightmare of a day today- overworked, underslept, tired. clicking through pages of nothing over and over. this degeneracy is me, could've been me.
fuck am i thankful for every fag like me who makes art.
🐶💙
What's the song in the club thats like "on youtube, on discord, on twitch"?
here, it's an extended version of this that cherry graciously donated to this game
10/10 i fucking hate gestirn
omg i just made an account so i can comment on this. it was so hard for me to read the beginning (compliment) cause i remember going to the club alone, feeling like i didn't belong somewhere I took two busses to be. (just like me frfr) I am no longer in that place in my life but still, sometimes it's hard. This game reminds me that there is a community out there for me as long as i try to find it. There is a future worth finding.
+ the dialog had me laugh, the tumblr/discord feeds were SO accurate, the fucking edit of the fucking cat and guinea-pig on the cube like ive watched it abt 10 times now. The color pallet shift when i turned the fkn bathroom light on and off, genius? this experience was good for the soul, UTI included.
Like, genuinely from the bottom of my heart thank you for making this game.
game of all fucking time holy SHIT
This was not a game. It was an alternate reality. It’s a story I have never lived, but could have easily been mine. I almost cried at several points, and ended up crying at the end. So touching. I can tell the author is a writer in the purest, rawest, realest sense. I’m a picky bastard, but in this moment I find no reason for my typical inclinations to emerge. I’ve been stealth as soon as I was able to and never looked back. This game almost makes me wish I had. Thank you for sharing a story in such a gorgeous, loving way. The details of the changing colors and backgrounds, the dialogue options that highlighted L’s people pleasing nature, the extremely realistic Discord/Tumblr/ real YouTube links… it’s a movie that breaks the fourth wall. These characters feel like collocations of real people who have long since been gone from my life. (Would not be surprised if Gestrin ended up being my ex partner XD) I have work in five hours but I had to finish this game. I see you are anonymous due to IFComp (which is how I discovered and consequently rated this game), and I eagerly await the day the reveal occurs. Maybe this is new territory for you. Or maybe you’re an established author trying out something new. Either way, thank you for a game by us, and for us <3
This was wonderful to read, thank you. "collocations of real people" is very accurate, as almost everyone in this story is based off actual people I knew who brought me to where I am now, for better and for worse, as well as snapshots of my past self. I hope it continues to reach the people who will experience it in a similar manner.
I will also say, as someone who's unstealthed himself, if you have safe means to do so, you cannot imagine how much it helps everyone else.
-- THE BLOOD
dear god this was an experience
also L is just like me frfr
wait... TWO endings???
So many intensely relatable lines, and not necessarily where you'd expect? Like, I *also* hate my rare but intensely vivid dreams that I can't shake for a week. Usually when I come across such a thing I'd make it my discord status for a bit... I can only have one discord status, so abandoned the idea after the fifth or so line.
Like ★𝔣𝔞𝔫𝔤★ I'm asexual - skipped through a few fair chunks. I mention this because I still enjoyed the rest immensely.
I could kill Gestirn, with my bare hands. Then someone should resurrect them and get them help. But the killing with bare hands bit would be cathartic af. All this to denote a resounding triumph of characterisation.
Visuals were great too! So good I didn't really notice them, except that they were always good and complimenting the experience.
Overall 10/10, of course.
started this game just wanting to try it for a couple of minutes but it got its claws in me and i finished it al in one go
10/10 would get in to the shoe of a british trans guy again
I'm asexual but I read through this whole thing
I felt for L-- being a transguy myself, especially for the whole haircut thing!! the amount of times I cut my hair and they look at me and frown and say it would make me look like a boy is INSANE!
being on discord also, I didn't like Ges-- they just make me blehh... with the whole "they are always arguing" and "it's a terrible idea" even after L said he had so much fun!! like they did everything and had to do everything even if they didn't....
then saying everyone was transphobic >:(
I clicked on all the links and read through everything, pretty cool, I'm glad you included those
thank you for this game <3
Chef Kiss for the vibe and its aesthetic.
This was something, an AMAZING something. God, I think i'm the guy at the start of this story. I've been through half of it, the tumblr/discord friend groups. I couldn't stop until I finished the whole thing. I AM parts of all these people in my transness. Halfway through I realised I could actually click on the youtube links, thanks for all the random videos. I'm in some post-playthrough haze, again that was AMAZING; You've captured this whole experience so well.
This comment means the world to me.
I feel, in many ways, that almost every character in this game contains a crystalised point of my journey of being trans, as well as points I wish to find myself in the future. It may be relevant to highlight (before we wish to reveal ourselves publicly after IFComp finishes) that my age is a mid-point between L's and Valentine's.
The fact that someone else relates to this game in the same way confirms that I have done everything I set out to do, and that it's vital for this game to exist. Even if you remain the only person affected like this, we have done our job. Thank you.
- THE BLOOD
very funny heartwarming relatable social horror, go bi lesbians